blog #3

Ugh. I can't believe I'm saying this right now. My father and brother were right. They were right the whole time! Hamlet never loved me. :( How could I be so dumb, so naïve to believe him?"You should have not believed me , for virtue cannot so inoculate our old stock but we shall relish of it. I loved you not."(3.1.126-129)Is what he said to me. "I loved you not"It caught me off guard. I couldn't believe it at first. The words replayed in my mind. “I loved you not” my chest literally hurt. Is it possibly for your heart to actually break? Because I think mine did. My chest felt so heavy, it was like someone just punched me in the stomach and I couldn't breathe. Why did I have to fall in love with HIM? Or better yet why couldn't he fall in love with me? Is there something wrong with me? Am I not pretty enough? Not good enough for him? It's just not fair.

And then he says to me"Get the to a nunnery; why wouldst thou be a breeder of sinners?"(3.1.131)So I should lock myself up. Don’t have any kids, just so there won't be more sinners? Life is what a person makes of it. If one decides to sin, they will be a sinner. I would hope to raise a family well enough for them to do the right thing and make the right choices without sinning.

I mean, can you tell I'm a little upset? the broken heart. the red and black. Like a bleeding broken heart. Pretty much straightforward. Time to move on again. we are never getting back together. 

like. ever.